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completed in a dream because mind has a tendency to complete everything. If it is not complete then the mind will always be uneasy. Effort is put into many things and if they remain incomplete, a dream is needed.
When there is desire, there is bound to be dreaming, because desiring is dreaming -- dreaming is just a shadow of desiring.
That night, when there was nothing to be done -- this world was already useless, now the other world was also useless -- all motivation to move ceased. There was nowhere to go, and there was no one to go anywhere That night sleep became samadhi, it became satori; it became the ultimate thing that can happen to a man. Buddha flowered that night and in the morning he was enlightened. He opened his eyes, looked at the last star disappearing in the sky, and everything was there. It had always been there, but he had wanted it so much he couldn't see it. It had always been there,. but he had been moving so much in the future with the desire that he could not look at the here and now.
That night there was no desire, no goal, nowhere to go, and no one to go anywhere -- all effort ceased. Suddenly he became aware of himself, suddenly he became aware of the reality as it is. Chuang Tzu says from the very beginning: Don't make any effort. And he is right. Because you will never make such a total effort as Buddha. You will never be so frustrated that the effort drops by itself; it will always be incomplete. And your mind will always go on saying: A little more and something will happen, a step more. The goal is near, why are you getting dejected? Just a little more effort is needed because the goal is coming nearer every day.
Because you will never make so absolute an effort you will never be completely hopeless. And you can continue this half-hearted effort for many lives -- that is what you have been doing in the past. You are not here for the first time before me. You are not here for the first time making some effort to realise the true, the real. You have done it many, many times, a million times in the past -- but you are still hopeful.
Chuang Tzu says; it is better to drop effort in the beginning. It has
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