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for a little time. Do the camp and then a few groups, and then I will tell you to do Vipassana.
I tell people to do it at the end when they have done everything else. Then they are ready. You have done it without being ready. Then it is hard.
[A sannyasin says:I have a problem. If I have to write I sometimes get cramp and it bothers me so much that I can't write.
Osho checks his energy.]
Leave it as it is until after the camp, and then every day for one hour, try to write, deliberately creating the cramp, waiting for it to come, forcing it to come. Do this for seven days, and I don't think that even for the first day you will be able to bring it. But for those seven days you have to try hard to bring it, because everything depends on your effort, so don't deceive yourself. Just don't think superficially, 'Yes, I am trying to bring it,' and deep down you are not. Then there will be trouble. Bring it, force it, and even pretend sometimes that it has come.
There is nothing wrong physiologically. It is just fear. Because you are afraid it will come, it comes. It is an auto-hypnosis, so the only way to break it is to bring it deliberately. Then there is no fear. You will really want to bring it and then suddenly you will be puzzled as to why it is not coming. You will see that the hand is flowing because there is no problem. The energy is really flowing more than ordinarily. It is just that some inhibition, some fear has got hold of your mind. Now whenever you write, that fear is there. You know that it is coming and you try hard not to allow it. You are fighting against it, hence the cramp.
Don't fight. And after seven days, report back to me. It will be gone... it is nothing.
Ravi means the source of light and dasa means a servant -- a servant of light. It is also the name of a very famous indian mystic, Ravidasa.
The sun is going to be your centre of worship, so never miss the early morning when the sun is rising. That is your time. If you miss that, you will miss much of the whole day. If you can imbibe the morning vibe of the rising sun, you will feel very very alive, flowing, high for the whole day. It will
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