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wherever you are, I am there, so there is no need to be physically close. Then a new door opens, a new dimension which knows no space and no time, and you can be as much present to me there, and I to you, as I am here. Then we have an inner tuning... but first you have to be tuned with the present.
So just watch and be a witness. Just take note, that's all. Don't get involved with the mind, don't get identified; remain aloof, a watcher.
And I can see that things are happening.... Much more is possible if this being too much in the mind stops -- because this is wasting energy, this distracts your energy.
So just watch, and after a few more days, and when I feel that you are ready, that you have forgotten the home completely, suddenly one day I will send you.
[A sannyasin says: Feels... Like an evasion, whatever I am trying to say. So I've nothing to say]
Right, that too is true... because it is always something deeper that you cannot say, so whatsoever you say will always look like an evasion. If you don't say anything, you will wonder why you didn't. If you do say something, you will feel that what you said was not the point, that there was something else you wanted to say.
Keep quiet -- there is nothing wrong in it. Just remain silent... and that which you want to share, I can hear without you even saying it. So don't be worried about it, mm? But whenever you feel that now words are coming, say them. Or if sometimes you want to enjoy an evasion, that too -- nothing wrong in it. But do it consciously....
Do it consciously next time. Be conscious that you are evading, but that you have to evade, and let us see what comes up, mm? Or this time you will try?
[The sannyasin answers: part of this evasive feeling is that I feel phoney, untrue.]
That's good, mm? that's good. The one who feels phoney is not phoney, and the part that feels untrue is not untrue. So find more and more shelter in that part, nourish that part.
When you want something to grow, nourish it, be attentive to it, care about it. When you want something not to grow, just keep your back towards it -- and it dies of its own accord. Just
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