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happens to everybody who starts changing inwardly, mm? Because the trees are the same, the houses are the same, the people are the same... the world is the same. And yet something has changed which is very elusive, and you cannot put your finger on it. You cannot say exactly what has changed. If somebody insists on knowing what has changed in you, you will not be able to say.
The change is in the layers of consciousness.... It is as if you have been to the mountains. The path moves round and round and round, and after walking for miles, again you come to the same spot where you had been a few hours before -- just a little below. Everything is the same -- the same scenery, the same trees, the same rocks -- and you have walked so much.
The journey is inner... and as when moving towards a mountain peak one ultimately arrives at the peak, one suddenly comes to know that one is standing in the marketplace. Nothing has changed -- and everything has changed. That's the paradox of religious consciousness. Hence all religions speak in paradoxes, in contradictions. They have to... there is no other way to speak.
Feel happy. Don't feel puzzled... I know in the beginning one feels puzzled.
And the second insight is also good -- that you are feeling that you are expanding. Naturally, in the beginning you will feel that your problems are expanding -- because everything will expand. Your anger will expand. Your insecurity will expand. Your sexuality will expand. Your love will expand. Everything will expand, because it is all part of you. So don't get scared about it.
If you go on expanding, by and by you will see that a qualitative change happens later on after a certain expansion; that a few things, if you expand them too much, become very thin. It is just like a balloon that you go on puffing at... it becomes bigger and bigger, but at the same time it is becoming thinner and thinner also. Soon a point will be reached when it will explode and the whole balloon will disappear.
This is the balloon of the ego, this sense of 'I', that expands. And this sense of 'I' implies all that you have: your problems, your anxieties, your nightmares,
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