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will always remain irreducibly the witness. So however far you go, you will always remain at the back of everything. You can never put yourself in the front of everything -- that's impossible.
So don't strain or you will become bored. Let it be a simple watching of thoughts. Don't watch the watcher, or you will be moving into a trap which is non-ending, that can lead you on ad infinitum.
If you feel the idea arising to watch the watcher, forget about thoughts also. Do something else, and again when you have forgotten, come back. Let it be a very playful thing... don't gt serious about it. mm? People can go crazy. and then they lose all their identity -- then they don't know who they are. So don't do it too much.
Just relax. and enjoy it. When you feel it is becoming like a strain, too heavy, forget all about it. Jerk your body and dance, or run around the house, or do something with the body so that you can get out of the mind, mm? Good.
[The groupleader, Amitabh, says: I'm a hopeless schizophrenic... The group was very beautiful. They just kept making the energy come, and they used it beautifully.
When the group was over I was so high that I was beyond the cliff already. Then I looked down -- and went all the way down... depressed, negative... didn't want to do anything didn't want to give anything to anybody... just wanted to stay in my room. It's exhausting.]
[Osho said that if one goes to the peaks, then one will fall into the valleys too. Some people remain in the middle -- they never experience the lows, but they never experience the highs either.
Osho said to Amitabh that he should not disturb the natural flow between the two points, and that he was trying to remain on the peak all the time, and that is not possible... ]
So I will not suggest that you fix yourself somewhere in the middle. Rather, accept the valley also.
The valley has its own beauty. Somehow you have a wrong attitude about the valley. Energy is beautiful -- but who has said to you that no-energy is not beautiful? Positivity is good -- but who has said to you that negativity is not good?
The whole of the mind has been conditioned
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