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I know that feeling neither doesn't feel good, because there is no excitement in it. It is not like happiness; it is not a high. It is not even like unhappiness, because it is not a low. Even in unhappiness there is a certain excitement. At least something is happening.
When you are neither, nothing is happening. It is as if all movement has stopped. It can become scary, can feel like negativity, emptiness, and one feels lost. I know it can create very much anguish -- more than unhappiness. If there is a choice for human beings to choose between this or unhappiness, they will choose unhappiness, because there is something to do, to hanker about -- something to change, something to destroy, something to desire, hope. But if you are just in the middle, then there is nothing.
But this is the point which is the best that human consciousness can start growing in. This is the best opportunity -- where you are neither. Then all futile activity drops, all desiring disappears.
In the beginning you will feel like a zombie -- moving, but not feeling any passion. In the morning one gets up just out of habit. There is nothing waiting for you; no excitement about the new day. Nothing is going to happen. One does things because they have to be done, but one is -not interested this way or that.
In the beginning it will be like a zombie state, but if you continue it, by and by you will feel a tremendous change coming.
It is not zombie-like. It is a beautiful silence. It appears zombie-like, is translated as being zombie-like, because you have not known it in your past; there is nothing similar to it. Only zombiness approaches somewhere near it.
By and by you will become accustomed to it. Then you get up for nothing. In fact you don't get up; energy gets up. There is no motivation, so there is no movement really in the future. You are here and now. Each moment you do something because it is required in the moment. It is a response in the moment -- for no result, no end. So whether it fails or succeeds makes no difference. Success and failure become one.
And that is the point where one attains to tranquillity. If success
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