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of his being, but then months pass and nothing comes. You cannot produce jewels every day.
In India they have a proverb about it -- that a bitch gives birth to ten, twelve pups at a time, and goes on every year, but a lion gives birth to only one cub.
The second type has been always facing that trouble -- a Picasso, a Van Gogh. One day they produce something tremendously madly -- they will not sleep, they will not eat. They will go on and on for weeks. Then for weeks nothing is coming and they will lie down and be lazy.
An indian poet, Rabindranath, whenever he writes poetry, he closes his door -- no food, no bath, no tea, nothing. For three days, four days, five days, he will be mad, just manic -- shouting and singing and dancing and writing... he will not sleep. And his whole family will be worried about what is going to happen. He will not even open the door, because any disturbance is enough to bring him down.... A frenzy of creativity ... as if he has become possessed. And then for months he will not write anything; he will be just a normal being.
So I will not suggest that you change it. Why? You have lived perfectly well, so why be bothered? Rather than change your pattern, when your moment comes to create then go completely mad, and ecstatically do something. And when it goes, enjoy its going, relax. If you force yourself to change it, you may be going against your nature -- and I never suggest anything that goes against anybody's nature.
[The sannyasin says: I just feel strange because somebody will give me something to do, and I just don't do it. It just sits there for months -- a simple thing, and I can't do it.]
So you can't do it! So what is the problem? That is his problem! (laughter) Simply tell him that this is the way you work -- in fits. If he catches hold of you in a fit -- good! If he doesn't, that is his lot!
No, never be unnecessarily troubled about these things. He can go to somebody else. You cannot be an ordinary worker, and it is good that you cannot be -- a few people are needed to be more creative than ordinary workers. You cannot be just a technician who knows the know-how and just does
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