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weeks, and ten minutes each night will be enough. After three weeks, stop. Even if you feel it is there after three weeks, it will go.
[A sannyasin says: there was something like anger but it was so deep... something clicked and I was no longer there, I was no longer conscious of it, but I lashed out in viciousness.
And that scares me because I don't feel it's really me, but it's deep inside somewhere.]
Don't get scared... that too is you. It is very difficult to accept it, but inside, man is the whole world -- from the lowest animal to the highest gods. Everything is there. Man has tried in history, in many ways, to fix his being, to create a belief that 'I am only this,' and to deny all that has never worked. It has created a very sad state of affairs.
Just the other day I was reading a joke, a jewish joke. The joke says that Jews have dominated the whole history of man. First is Moses who said 'It is all in the head of man' -- who tried to explain everything through the head. Then the second Jew, Jesus, who said 'It is all in the heart of man'. Then there was a third Jew called Marx, who said 'It is all in the belly of man,' and the fourth Jew, Freud, who said, 'It is a little lower than the belly'. And then the fifth Jew, Einstein, who said 'It is all relative'!
But this has been our effort in the whole history of man -- to fix somewhere, to say 'Man is this': to say that it is all in the head or all in the heart, or all is economics, or all is sex -- somehow to give man a fixation, a fixed definition. That has not worked. Man is all.
Man represents the whole cosmos.
So remember never to reject anything. If you say 'This is not me', then you can never be total and whole. You are rejecting a part which will become a dark corner in your being. It will remain there. Just by saying no to it, it is not going to dissolve. It will remain there and it will become inimical to you, and it will take revenge. That's how a man goes mad -- it was the revenge of certain things that the man was denying.
If you deny love and you remain just in the head and work through the head, and you think that the head is the all and
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