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can say I am guilty'. On the contrary she can make much fuss. But deep in her unconscious she wants to be raped.
So tomorrow you sit in the corner and decide. Look inside. If you find a treasure there, by all means, protect it. These people are thieves, robbers. I am the greatest robber here! (laughter) Protect your treasure and don't listen to anybody, because once they break the locks the treasure is gone .
If you don't find anything worthwhile there, just emptiness, then for what are you resisting? Come out, and on your knees pray to them to help you.
[A group member says: I have a lot of enthusiasm for the group, but I've been feeling stuck.]
Mm mm... it can happen sometimes. It can happen because of too much sincerity. Whenever a person is too sincere, he becomes serious. He is bent upon doing something, and that becomes the barrier. Because these things happen; you cannot do. At the most you can allow; you cannot do. In fact enthusiasm is not needed. One has to be passive, to allow.
Too much sincerity, too many expectations -- that something has to be done and something has to happen -- make one tense. That is the tension somewhere near the diaphragm. And when it is not happening, one starts finding reasons why it is not happening: 'Am I not enthusiastic enough? Because everything is being done and nothing is happening; maybe I'm not enthusiastic enough.' That comes to the mind. That is a rationalisation.
If you are running hard and not reaching the goal, the mind says 'Run a little harder. You are not running hard enough'. But the possibility is that the goal can never be reached through the running, harder or not. There is a possibility that the goal can only be reached when you are standing, because the goal is where you already a!e.
Enthusiasm is not needed. Enthusiasm is a feverish state, and one cannot remain enthusiastic for long. It cannot be a natural thing. It is a fever; it comes and then goes. Never rely on any fever. Inspiration, enthusiasm -- these are all feverish states.
So that has been your whole pattern in the past. You want to do, you are a doer, and you don't know how to allow things
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