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and feel fear. It is part of it -- not dual; it has nothing against it. It simply shows that you are feeling... that love is becoming stronger, and you will have to dissolve in it. So one starts feeling apprehensive about one's ego death -- that's the fear.
If you go on clinging to the fear and you don't allow love to grow, then a duality may come. A duality is not there, but if you go on clinging to fear and don't allow love to grow and possess you, to demolish and re-create you, then the duality will come. Then you will hanker for love because it promises so many roses. All its promises are going to be fulfilled -- but they can only be fulfilled when you have dropped the fear and you go along with love, wherever it leads -- to the unknown, to a strange world, the uncharted. In the beginning love and fear arise together. Now the question arises -- what are you going to choose ?
So let the fear be there, but choose love. In spite of fear, choose love. I don't say, and I don't expect that you can drop the fear now, but in spite of the fear go on choosing love. Tell the fear that it's okay, natural, but that you are still going on. In fact let the fear become a challenge, so that rather than hindering you, it becomes an invitation. Rather than becoming an obstacle, it becomes a challenge and you take the jump head-long.
As you move, love will become more and more real, and fear will start disappearing. When the light of love comes, the darkness of fear disappears. But meanwhile one has to go on, trembling -- and still moving.
So don't create any problem -- there is none. Just take note of the fear and continue on your journey.
And you can start a small centre in your home.
[He answers: I don't know if I am able.]
Mm! That I will make you. I make people out of nothings -- don't be worried (laughter). That's my whole work.
Just start with a small beginning -- don't think of big things. A small tree sooner or later becomes a big tree, mm? You think only about the seed and the tree will take care of itself. Just go there, have a few tapes, books, and ask friends to come. You will be there in orange, and they will
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