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and just does it.
You love whatsoever you do, so you can do only when there is that energy, that space. But I will not suggest you change -- there is no need. This type of person is also needed in the world. Be happy. This is how the mind functions....
I know the other type also. They come and they would like to be creative. They are ready to sacrifice anything -- just to become creative. They don't want to create a thousand poems -- just one poem, but worth a nobel prize. But they cannot do it because they are of the other type. They are also needed. The whole world will be in difficulty if they are not there. Ninety-nine percent they are needed, but not one hundred percent. One percent the work of the artist is needed.
So accept this and more will be possible. Once you accept yourself -- that this is how you are, this is the way God wanted you to be -- many more beautiful things will be coming from you. And when they are not coming, they are not coming. There is no problem... don't be worried!
[A sannyasin asked about his music-making: I tend to find themes and then elaborate on them. Should I do this or should I try to surprise myself at every note?]
If you can do that -- if you can surprise yourself at every note -- you will go deeper into it because that theme and whatsoever you work around it, is intellectual. It gives a framework, and the framework remains in the conscious; it doesn't allow the unconscious to function.
If you move without any frame, not knowing where you are going, if you just al!*ow yourself to be led somewhere, if you leave the conscious behind and the unconscious takes possession, you may come to discover many things inside yourself, and you will go to deeper layers of your being....
When I say be spontaneous, I don't mean let it be chaotic. I mean let it move by feel, not by thought. It will not be themeless, but the theme will arise out of your feelings. It will have more of the quality of the heart. Of course it will be more incomprehensible.
Music has to be incomprehensible. Music is the language of the heart. One should not try to be logical and mathematical about it. But that
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