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use it as much as you can. And of course you will be loving deeply... you will be meditating deeply... you will be living deeply. Whatsoever you live will have a depth to it. So don't create unnecessary problems.
This is how I see many people go on creating problems where problems don't exist. One should be happy about such qualities, and one should be thankful to God. Use them -- use them as much as you can. And don't be miserly; the more you use, the more you will become sensitive and creative.
So from this moment, drop that idea. Otherwise you are creating a conflict. You like it and you are trying to judge it as if it is not worth liking. This is how we create dualisms. Don't create them. Float with it -- that's your way.
[The sannyasin says: I called it acting because I'm frequently talking to myself in my mind, performing... ]
Nothing wrong in it -- talk, perform. Don't be worried about it. By and by this will drop. As you become more sensitive it will drop -- because this is not going to help sensitivity. For example, if you are going to meet a woman you love and you talk inside your mind about what you are going to say and how you are going to propose and this and that... if you talk too much, when you go to the woman it is already secondhand. Now the whole thing is lost. Now you will simply be moving through empty gestures, repeating something which you have already done. You will hold the hand -- you have already held her hand. You will say 'I love you' -- and you have said a thousand and one times in the mind that you are going to say 'I love you'. It is already stale.
So this is not the way really to live the moment deeply. You are destroying the moment. Become more sensitive. Don't fight. If this idea comes into the mind, just watch it. Just say 'So here you go again' -- and just watch. It is a psychodrama, mm?
The whole of psychodrama has developed out of this. The whole methodology is of rehearsal, of acting something out. So just say 'Good', but be watchful and keep aloof. Stand somewhere far away and just look. And make one point certain, that when you go and meet your woman, don't repeat whatsoever you
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