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to bring them out -- because there are so many things, so much rubbish. And howsoever much you bring out, you still have so much that you are not worried.
But you have only one thing... so you will cling to it. You will be miserly about bringing it out. So this is a problem for people who have not many things.
For example, a person has millions of rupees. He can go on throwing a few rupees here and there -- he has nothing much to worry about. But if there is only one -- once gone, it is gone.
So in the beginning it is going to be a very very tough struggle. But in a way it is good, because once dropped, it is dropped. And it will be difficult for you to formulate what it is, because the very formulation is the beginning of throwing it away.
So the mind goes on hiding it. It doesn't even allow you to have a look at what you have got. Because if you have a look, the very awareness that you are keeping it, hiding it, holding it, starts the opposite process -- of throw it away. Nobody can hold anything consciously; unconsciousness is needed.
And it is not that the tightness is coming in the stomach because you are taking so many things in -- no. The tightness is because you are holding something there. It never comes by taking things in....
I will do something... don't be worried. Continue meditating, and I would like you to do a few groups also....
[Osho passed her a small wooden box, which is charged with his energy telling her to put it on her head a allow her body to move as it wanted.... ]
Bring all tightness to the top of your head -- as if the whole tightness from the stomach is being transferred. Force the tightness up to your head as if there is a magnetism and it is sticking to your head. And then allow your body energy any movement.
Cooperate with it, mm? If the hand starts shaking, not only allow it to shake, help it to shake... a deep cooperation with it. Then I can feel what is going on.
If something happens in the body, allow it -- whatsoever it is. At least in front of me don't hide, don't hold anything.
Nothing is a problem... it will go, mm? Keep this with you, and every night
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