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of getting into fearful situations, arrange a life of no change. Everything remains the same and a person follows a dead routine -- completely oblivious that life is a flux. He remains in an island of his own making in which nothing changes. Mm? -- the same room, the same photographs, the same furniture, the same house, the same habits, the same slippers -- everything the same. The same brand of cigarettes; even a different brand you won't like. Between this, amidst this sameness, one feels at ease.
People live almost in their graves. What you call a convenient and comfortable life is nothing but a subtle grave. So when you start changing, when you start on the journey of inner space, when you become an astronaut of the inner space, and everything is changing so fast, every moment is trembling with fear. So more and more fear has to be faced.
Let it be there. By and by you will start enjoying the changes so much that you will be ready at any cost. Change will give you vitality... more aliveness, zest, energy. Then you will not be like a pond -- closed from everywhere, not moving. You will become like a river flowing towards the unknown, and towards the ocean where the river becomes lost.
[The sannyasin asks: I have one more thing... my parents -- can you do something for them ? Especially my mother, because her body is very ill. I would like to give you their pictures.]
I will do something... I have got their thread from you. You are part of your parents, mm? When a son is converted, half the father is gone! (laughter)
[Another sannyasin who had done the Tao group, said that she felt a sense of frustration, because although things seemed to be happening, she felt she was still just standing on the same spot. She added that she felt a sense of expansion in herself.]
The feeling is meaningful. One is really on the same place -- because the change is not outside you... it is inside.
The journey is inner. Everything remains the same, and yet not the same. So you feel both together -- that the journey is going very fast, and yet you are standing on the same place. That paradox is very significant. Don't be worried about
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