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It goes on moving clockwise. And it is good if you want to be creative.
If you don't want to be creative, then live haphazardly. One day go to sleep in the morning, another day go to sleep at midnight. One day eat your food in the morning, another in the afternoon, another in the night; create confusion and chaos within you. You may think that you are changing many things and are living such an original life, but your whole energy will be wasted. Nothing great can come out of such a wastage of energy. If you really want something to evolve out of your being, have a very very smooth-running life.
And very small things make it smooth -- getting up at the same time every day. I don't mean to become neurotic about it. One day one is not feeling well, one is feeling feverish -- then there is no need to be so neurotic about your having to get up at five, whether you are ill or healthy. That is not the point. And I am not saying that you have to eat exactly the same amount of food whether you are ill or healthy -- just be balanced.
Just accept the routine life. Use your energy for meditation, music, dancing... do something. There are so many beautiful things to be done. And the more beautiful things you do, the more beautiful you become. If you dance a good dance, it is not only a good dance, it makes you good... it makes you beautiful... it makes you graceful, gives you a dignity which nobody else but a dancer can have.
If you sing well, it is not just only singing. It spreads all over your being... you carry a quality of song. You sing, you don't sing; you may sing, you may not sing -- but if you are a good singer something song-like goes on throbbing within you. People who have ears will be able to hear it.
[A sannyasin who is leaving says: I feel a lot of things. I feel this duality -- I love you and I feel also fear, and I don't understand the relation between the two.]
There is no duality. Wherever love is, almost always fear will be found, because love is death-like. Love is a death... it is a dying. You disappear.
It brings a very dangerous adventure into your life. So whenever you are in love, you will tremble and
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