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good! Enjoy this, that you don't love anybody. This is very good, because you will not be in trouble. Love brings trouble: the more you love, the more trouble -- anxiety and anguish, the fear of rejection and this and that. You are completely beyond all that: nobody can reject you because you don't love at all. You are finished with the world. You are a real sannyasin!
[The sannyasin answers: But I miss love... I miss it!]
So miss it; what can be done about it? Or find somebody who is even colder than you. One thing has to be settled, that you are whatsoever you are and there is no way to be otherwise. The day you see this all misery will disappear. In that very seeing great bliss will arise in you, and maybe then love will become possible and you warm up. Nobody knows. But you cannot do it, it can only happen. It will be a gift from god, not something manipulated by you.
So just wait, and meanwhile, enjoy! Whatsoever you can do, do and enjoy. I see that you can enjoy it perfectly.
This idea also that you need love, this and that, comes from seeing other people. It is not really your idea; you are seeing that somebody is being loved and somebody is holding hands and hugging and they are in such love, and you feel you are missing, you must be missing something.
This is just your inference. It is not your deepest urge, because I don't see the urge anywhere. You are a born nun!...
Yes! And to be a born nun is something beautiful. When somebody tries and becomes a nun it is ugly, it is perversion.
[A seeker asks: Please help me die.]
I am ready to help -- you are obstructing it. Become a sannyasin. Close your eyes.
Look into my eyes and have a tongue-tip taste of tao!
Deva means divine, amrita means immortality. Mrita means mortality, amrita means immortality. The English word 'mortality' comes from the same Sanskrit root; immortality, morte, mortem, post-mortem, mortality, immortality, all come from the same root mrita. Mrita means death; amrita means deathlessness. The only way to attain to deathlessness is to die, to die as far as the ego is concerned. To die in the ego is to be born in god. To
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