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the throat and my hands. I fall asleep during the lectures, and I feel tired -- like I'm being shattered.]
So get shattered! Why are you resisting? Why are you creating any trouble? Just get shattered and be finished with it. Once you are shattered there is no problem -- no tightness, no shakiness. If you resist, it continues. There is no need to resist. Just allow it and let it be settled. You just have a good laugh, that's all.
The problem arises because we go on doing contrary things.
My whole effort is to shatter you. And your whole effort is to protect yourself. Then shakiness arises and you feel a trembling inside and everything feels disturbed. You want one thing and I am trying to do something else. I am trying to destructure you so your old armour is no more there. I am trying to break the shell so you can come out of your egg -- and you are trying to protect it. So of course you feel shaky and troubled and tired and tight.
Either tell me that I should stop... then I will not try any shattering; I will leave you untouched and then you will be okay ... or listen to me and get shattered. Cooperate with me and be finished with it. Mm? What shall I do, tell me.
[She answers: keep going!]
Good, good... And in the lecture you can fall asleep. Enjoy it; there is nothing wrong in sleep.
And don't say that in lecture time you fall asleep. Rather say that you listen to my lectures while asleep! (a chuckle) That is better and more positive. There is nothing wrong in it. Sleep is good. There also you must be resisting -- trying not to fall asleep. Many people fall asleep... Don't create a problem about it; enjoy it.
Whatsoever is important will be heard by you even in your sleep. You may not remember it but it will become part of your being and when the time arises, it will be there, available. So from tomorrow, you simply relax. Don't fight the tendency to go to sleep.
And I see everything is going well -- that's why you are feeling shaky!
[Osho gives a name for a new centre.]
Pallas.
It is an indian flower, a very beautiful flower, a red flower. It grows in the forest, a wild flower.
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