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it -- it is pointless. You cannot create it by thinking. In fact if you think about it too much, you will create a barrier. Forget all about it! It has been there; feel grateful, and forget all about it -- it is over. And don't ask for it in the future.
If you ask for its repetition, there are only two possibilities: one, it may be repeated, but then it won't give you delight. Never does any repetition give you delight. How can repetition give you delight? It can simply create more boredom -- you already know it. It is as if you have gone to see the same movie again. How can it give you delight? It is a repetition, and you already know what is going to happen -- the surprise is lost.
So if your desire to repeat it is fulfilled by some chance, by some coincidence -- again tomorrow the bird on the wing, again tomorrow the rose flower, again a child giggling, again the sunset, and the light on the water -- maybe by coincidence it is there, but then you miss. Now you already know. It is a pleasure, so you are there. The shock is not there -- that shock that makes you disappear. And of course it is a boring thing; it is boredom.
If it is not fulfilled -- which is more possible in the nature of things -- then you are frustrated. If your desire is fulfilled, you gain nothing; it is tasteless. If it is not fulfilled, you lose much; you feel very much frustrated now -- why not today again the same pleasure? In both the ways you are a loser.
So remember this: delight is good -- I am all for delight -- but I am absolutely against pleasure, because pleasure is a false coin. Either it is of the past or of the future -- it is never herenow. Herenow is what I call delight.
So live each moment delightfully, and again and again forget it so it never becomes a repetition. And never desire for it again. It will come in millions of ways, and it will always be fresh and virgin. Do you see the difference?
So now, by and by start dropping pleasure, and hold more and more delight in your being.
[The new sannyasin says: I feel like I've been close for a long time. There's something that keeps me from taking off.]
Mm mm. I understand.
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