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you don't know -- nobody knows -- how you will feel in the next moment.
So when you are making an assertion that you will love her forever, declare simultaneously that this is this moment's feeling -- next moment you don't know. Be humble about it, helpless about it. You would like to love her forever, but what is the next moment going to bring? Nobody knows. And you have no power over the future. How can you promise?
So this is not a promise. This is just the expression of this moment's heart. This moment's feeling is expressed -- that if this moment is going to be your last moment, you have loved her and nobody else... but the next moment? The next moment will decide.
So be consistent with the moment. But if you are consistent with the moment, next moment you may not be able to be consistent with your past. That I call devotion to truth -- whatsoever truth is in a certain moment, you are with it. When that moment is gone, it is gone. If it comes, that's good. If it doesn't come, good.
For one year simply be this way, and then see what happens. Changes will happen -- I don't say improvement. Changes will happen -- tremendous changes will happen. And I don't think that you will fall back. That one year will be enough. You will never be the same again. But at least one year's time is needed, so things get roots in you.
[The sannyasin answers: What device do you have for me to keep reminding myself of that all the time?]
If you can understand this moment, enough! Again you ask about how to remember it all the time, how can you manage it. Just understand in this moment, and that understanding will flow into you.
Whenever you can remember, good. Whenever you forget, good. If you forget in a certain moment, then forgetting is the truth of that moment; trying to remember will be forcing something. So forget! When you again remember, remember. You follow me? Otherwise you have brought in your old problem again: now how to remember this?
If you forget, you forget -- what can be done? If you remember, you remember. But if you have understood the point, it will be there like a subtle remembrance inside you... a very
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