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will remain empty, unfulfilled, frustrated, because the real kingdom, the real riches are part of your interiority, of your subjectivity, of your soul.
Ordinary humanity is extrovert. That's exactly the meaning of the worldly man: extrovert. By becoming a sannyasin you will be moving in exactly the opposite direction: it is introversion. Not that I am against the world, but not to know oneself is very dangerous. Once you know yourself you can roam all over the world sharing your joy and living your joy; then there is no problem. If you are rooted in your being you can be as extrovert as you want, nothing can harm you. You can live in the marketplace but your meditation will remain undisturbed.
But the first, the foremost thing is to settle within, to be acquainted with your inner reality. And my whole effort is to turn you in, in every possible way, to help you to go in.
I cannot give you the truth, nobody can, but I can indicate where it is to be found. It is not to be found on the moon, it is not to be found on Everest; it is to be found just within you. Learn to close your eyes and see within.
(To Marilyn) -- This is your new name: Ma Prabhato. Prabhato means the early dawn.
Sannyas is the early dawn. It is an end and a beginning, it is a death and a rebirth. it is the interval between the two.
You will have to drop the past, you will have to drop clinging to the old, whatsoever it is, good or bad. it is not a question of choosing the good and dropping the bad: the past has to be dropped totally. One has to disconnect oneself from the past; only then toes the rebirth become possible, only then does the sun rise. The sun is always ready to rise, it is just that we go on clinging to the past, and the past is nothing but a dark night.
Enough is enough. Now drop the old and let the new be born in you. And always remember: Sannyas is not something like an event, it is a process. It is not that one day you become a sannyasin and then it is finished. It is like breathing: you have to go on breathing continuously.
Sannyas is a process not an event, so you will have to go on dropping the past continuously, because
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