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would have told you to approach her again. It is just a guilt feeling somewhere deep down: you are feeling that you betrayed her, that it was not good of you, that you have done something wrong to her and you would like to compensate for it. But you cannot compensate -- you can only hurt her more. Don't open the closed wounds again. If it is finished, it is finished. You can be friendly to her but don't start any relationship with her again.
If you do, you will be hurting the woman that you are living with, so you will create more confusion. Then after two years you will start feeling guilty about this other woman -- then it is too late. There are a few people who always arrive when the train has left. They always reach the station when the train is moving out from the platform. Don't be that kind of a person.
If you are feeling guilty you can go to the woman, apologise. Say to her 'I feel a great desire to apologise.' That's all... that's all that I feel in your energy. And this can't create any relationship. If because of guilt you create a relationship, soon you will start taking revenge on her, because it is because of her that you felt guilty and you got into this mess again.
These are vicious circles. Just a good apology will do. You can cry and weep and you can say 'Forgive me -- I was not up to you.' But what is finished is finished, and it is never good to cry over spilled milk....
[A sannyasin had previously written to Osho about her alcohol problem. She says she wants to be drunk on Osho instead. Osho checks her energy.]
You will get drunk on me -- don't be worried, mm ? And it is very easy to drop your alcoholism... it is not a problem. It is just an old habit -- there is no need in your energy. And it has not got into your system at all. It is just an old habit; one can go on doing it mechanically. When it gets into the system of a certain person then it is difficult to stop it -- it becomes a chemical need. It is not so in you; your energy is completely free of it.
So simply stop it. Don't think that you have to stop slowly slowly; from this moment forget all about it. And for a few days, when doing nothing,
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