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your day-to-day life rather than thinking that it can be completed; it cannot be completed.
But if you have time you can give... one or two days more -- it is perfectly okay, mm?
[The client then says: The reason I felt to ask to continue a couple of days is that I feel as if I'm using my energy against myself.]
Mm mm, everybody is doing that, everybody is doing that... otherwise we would not be in misery at all! On one hand we go in this direction, on another we pull ourselves into another direction, so we never go anywhere: we are stuck. You are moving for the whole of your life and yet are stuck, going here and there but never really going anywhere because we go on destroying whatsoever we create; our energy is against ourselves.
We are self-destructive, we are suicidal people. Man is the only animal who commits suicide... and that suicide is not only for those who really commit suicide. Mm? -- slowly, in a very homeopathic dose, everybody does it. On one plane of your being you love a person -- on another plane you hate; you go on destroying your love.
And that happens in therapy very much. You have gone into the therapy to cooperate, but your whole past is there, it cannot be just dropped like that. It is there... it will put up great resistance. The therapy is against it: the therapy is trying to take you out of your past, to bring you out of your attachments in the past.
Even if the therapy takes you to the past it is only to take you out of it. If it makes you travel backwards it is just to see where you are clinging, where you are still hooked, so that you can unhook from that point and your energy can start flowing.
So therapy is against the past, primal therapy particularly is against the past; it makes you free of the past -- hence it takes you into the past so that once you have gone into it thoroughly, intelligently, deliberately, you can destroy all the places where your energy is caught. Once those spaces are destroyed your energy is fully available to grow, to move into the future -- you are free of the past. To be free of the past is to be free.
So the past will give all kinds of resistance.
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