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vibe. So to get out of these vibes it takes time... and you are coming out perfectly well.
When you start becoming an individual you start feeling lonely, you feel lonely. This is not tripping; this is therapeutic... it is not bad.
First, really become lonely! That means that the appetite has arisen again. There are two types of people: one person eats exactly at the time he always eats, he does not wait for the appetite. His lunchtime is there so he eats; he has forgotten what appetite is. All rich people forget what appetite is -- before the appetite arises, they eat. A better way of eating is to wait for the appetite. It may not come at twelve -- it may come at two or three or it may not come for one day. Next day it will come; it cannot remain not-coming forever.
When the appetite comes food is joy. When the appetite comes, when you have become individual and you start feeling really lonely, you are virgin again. That's what I mean by being individual. Again all that was your past has disappeared -- those dead leaves have fallen. It is no more part of you: you are out of it as a snake moves out of the dead skin, the old skin.
Then it will be easier to find a person You will have better eyes and a better perspective and a better flow. And it will be easier for somebody else to find you: your very appetite will attract somebody. Right now you will be searching out of misery, not out of appetite -- and these are different things.
Right now you will be simply searching for a substitute for [your lover]. [He] is missing; you want another [lover]. Let [him] go completely, be clean of him, and then you will be looking for somebody new. Somebody new is better because you have lived with [your lover], and if you get [him] again that will be miserable. Mm? again the same thing, the same trip will come in.
Wait. My feeling is that the energy is perfectly good. You are just coming out of the relationship; you are emerging: the flood is going, receding. Soon you will become an individual again, as you were before you ever fell in love with anybody.
A person becomes a virgin many times in his life if he can simply wait. Virginity
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