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-persons. Then there are people who are vulnerable but they feel weak. These people, who are feeling weak when they are vulnerable, cannot feel vulnerable long: sooner or later that weakness will make them so afraid that they close.
So this is the right mind -- to feel vulnerable and strong. Then you can remain vulnerable and each day your strength will grow, and you will become courageous enough to become more and more vulnerable.
A really brave person is absolutely open -- that is the criterion of courage. Only a coward is closed, and a strong person is as strong as a rock and as vulnerable as a rose.
Paradox is there -- and all that is real is always paradoxical.
So always remember: when you feel something paradoxical don't try to make it consistent, because that will be false. Reality is always paradoxical: on one hand you feel vulnerable, on another hand you feel strong -- that means a moment of truth has arrived. On one hand you feel you don't know anything, on another hand you feel you know all -- a moment of truth has arrived.
On one hand you always feel one aspect, and on the other hand just the diametrically opposite aspect, and when you have both these aspects together always remember that something true is very close by.
So feel exhilarated -- this is beautiful. And I will be with you....
[A sannyasin says: ... my heart is opening up. I feel very weak and defenseless, vulnerable.
I find it hard to maintain being vulnerable and being open because I don't know what's happening to me.]
I think you have some attitude of rejection towards your weakness. You don't want to be weak, you don't want to show your weakness. You want to show strength, you want to be a strong man. That deep desire is creating the trouble but that desire is just an ego desire.
We are weak! It is just natural: we are born one day and we will be dying another day -- how can we be very strong?
And existence in the body is very precarious. Any moment just a little more oxygen, or a little less oxygen, and you are gone! A little less sugar in the blood and you are gone... a little disfunctioning in the brain and
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