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was happening to her.]
You have come home you may not be able yet to realise it. There comes a moment when you have to really go into it... and that moment has come. That's why you were feeling stuck in your work, in your film.
Things go only up to a certain extent, and then unless you change, everything starts falling apart. If you are not integrated, whatsoever you are doing cannot have real integration, can only be put together superficially, just put together And that putting together will be just a mechanical unity, not an organic unity.
It will be just as you can put a car together -- but you cannot put a flower together that way, a flower has to be grown. It has an organic unity, an inner unity -- it has a centre and the centre comes first, then the petals.
In a mechanical unity parts come first, then the whole. In an organic unity, the whole comes first and then the parts.
So you have come to a point where you can no more continue the way you have been. Now you need a radical change, a radical change of your own being; only then will things flow again and the flow have an organic unity.
Otherwise one can write poetry and there will be no poetry in it. And one can write a story, it will not have any centre; it will be much ado about nothing -- a tale told by an idiot, full of fury and noise, signifying nothing.
The significance comes from the person, the poet; it is not in the poetry. If the poet has something overflowing, then the poetry becomes luminous, then it has a glow, it has a subtle unity. It throbs with life, it has a heart, it beats... you can hear the beat of the heart. Then it lives and grows... it goes on growing. It is almost like when a child is born to you, you may die but the child goes on growing. The real poetry will go on growing even when the poet is gone.
That's how a Kalidas or a Shakespeare goes on living. The poetry has something organic in it; it is not just put together.
So unless you take courage for this quantum leap you will remain stuck -- nothing will satisfy you any more, and all that you have been doing up to now will look futile. It is just as if a person has
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