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life and your death. Because of life being stirred you feel very good. Because of death being stirred you feel afraid and apprehensive. So that's natural, but you have to understand it and let it go. Help it to go, guide it. By and by you will become alert that it is so beautiful. Once the energy makes contact with the hara, you will suddenly feel a transformation happening in you; you will never be the same again. And then freaking out simply disappears, because there is no need -- you can contain so much.
One day there will again be a release of energy, but that will have a totally different quality to it. Then it is not freaking out. It has no violent expression. It is a very soft, subtle vibration. You lose nothing in that, and others who are around you simply gain. They become aflame and aglow. In the East that's what we call satsang. Whenever a person has too much energy in his hara centre, then just sitting by his side is enough. Just being in his presence is enough. You start flying... the gravitation no more affects you; you become weightless.
So this is something tremendously beautiful, and it is just on the verge so help it. Fear will be there -- that's natural -- and it will go only when the energy has touched the hara centre and you know that there is going to be nothing wrong in it, no harm in it. So from this moment, whenever you feel, just try to guide it, take it there.
[The sannyasin adds: how to work and do something which requires great effort on one hand, and yet to do it without any effort.]
The problem arises because of the logical mind, because the mind says that these two things are contradictory. If you make effort, you make effort; how can you make it effortlessly? If you become effortless, there is no effort; all effort disappears. So the mind divides these two -- effort and effortlessness. But try to understand in a different way.
A child is playing and he is absolutely absorbed in his play -- so much so that even if a neighbour's building falls and collapses he may not even hear the sound. He is absorbed... maybe making sandcastles, but he is absolutely absorbed. There is effort, tremendous effort
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