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then you could not remember. Everything went topsy-turvy -- you cracked up. But if you look into this too much you will forget exactly what was happening. It was an impact of great energy on you.
And I was aware that something was going to happen from the very beginning; you were in a certain space. It is almost an LSD trip without any acid.
And it is very shocking. When you take LSD you know what you have done; you wait for it. This comes so unexpectedly... it comes without any warning. You were not expecting it and then suddenly it is there. It disturbs the whole body, because a distance arises between you and your body so that the old contact is lost. That's why you could not get up; you could not talk -- or even if you were talking, you could not hear yourself talk. Your memory was not functioning. Everything went abnormal because something new penetrated, and the impact was so much that the body could not tolerate it and the mind could not bear it But this is how it happens for the first time.
By and by, when it comes next time, you will be able to cope with it more easily and you will be able to look at the positive aspect of it. It is as if I throw a knife at you, and the knife hits you hard and you feel pain. You miss the knife completely. You feel the pain and you don't see the knife because the pain comes to you first. It is like a knife -- and you have missed that completely. You simply felt the pain of it, the impact of it, and it was so destructive. It has to be destructive. All creation is preceded by destruction.
So it was very very good. You entered a new space. It will be coming. There is no need to expect it, there is no need to long for it, and when it comes there is no need to feel afraid about it. Good, Maneesha... everything is good! You can go and rest now.
God Is Not For Sale
Chapter #2
Chapter title: None
13 October 1976 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium
Archive code: 7610135
ShortTitle: SALE02
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Prem means love and pradeepam means flame -- a flame of love, a light of love or lamp of love. And sannyas is nothing
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