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sends you into life to learn something -- and you escape. It is as if your parents send you to school and you escape; you say, "I have renounced the school." The school has to be transcended, not renounced. You have to pass through all those examinations. They are hard; the harder they are, the better.
So this is my message to you on your sannyas birth: change your psychology but don't be bothered about the situation outside. It's perfectly okay; as it is, it is perfectly good. Then the whole emphasis is on the inner change. Then you don't become occupied with outer changes -- what to eat, what not to eat, where to live, where not to live, how long to stay in a place, how many things to keep -- because if there are so many things you may become attached -- to look at a woman or not, to touch a woman or not. Then there are a thousand and one problems, and one becomes so occupied with all that nonsense that no time is left to work for the inner journey.
So no need to be worried about those things. Put your whole energy into meditation. Let meditation explode in you and all else will follow of its own accord. All the changes come to the person who meditates, and they come without any effort. And when they come without any effort, they have a beauty. They are not forced changes....
So whenever you can come, come for a camp -- do at least one camp so you can do all the meditations.
Go to the center... and start meditating. Would you like to say something to me?
[The sannyasin asks: When I am looking in the mirror I feel that the reflection is not mine. Why is it so? I am looking daily in the mirror. I feel that whatever I am looking at is not me.]
It's perfectly beautiful, this experience -- because you are not your body, you are not your face. Your body is just like your clothes, it is just your garment. Go on looking; the feeling will become more and more clear and loud. One day you will suddenly see that whatsoever you are seeing in the mirror is not you at all, and that will be a great insight. It is not you! People think that they are seeing themselves in the mirror because they are identified with their bodies.
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