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becomes tired sooner or later. In remaining victorious it becomes tired, and the defeated part, sooner or later, because it can rest, becomes powerful. It overthrows the victorious.
Real victory is never through conflict; it is always through integration. One has to become very very one; one has to collect oneself together. Everything has to be accepted and absorbed -- anger. sex, greed, jealousy. All have to be absorbed so that you can become one piece. And to become one is to be victorious, is to be blissful, is to be peaceful -- and that is the space in which God descends.
God is not for beggars. It is not for the defeated ones. It is for those who are emperors, it is for those who are victorious.
Anand means bliss, Ami means nectar -- the nectar of bliss. That is our search, that is everybody's search. Even trees and animals and birds are groping for the nectar of bliss -- unconsciously, in darkness, but the groping is the same. And all men are groping: the good and the bad, the sinner and the saint; the search is the same.
It is the search that unites us with the whole of existence, and the search is for a state of ultimate bliss -- a bliss that will never end, a bliss that will never know any death. Hence I call it the nectar of bliss. Once it is found, it is found forever. It can be found; and it is not far away either; it is very close by. Even to say it is close by is not right, because it is exactly what you are: it is your very being. Discover it... go in!
[The new sannyasin says: I'm not sure that all of me wants to be here, that all of me wants to be a sannyasin.
That is natural, that is natural. Never ask the impossible from yourself. Those demands are violent. Even if your major part wants to be here, that's enough... and I will seduce you slowly more and more! (laughter) Nothing to be worried about. Accept that part also that does not want to be here, because that too is you.
And that other part is also important, very significant. It gives meaning to your yes. Your no gives meaning to your yes. Your no becomes the definition of your yes. The part that resists becomes the background of your surrender
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