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to worry, to be tense, no need to toss and turn and to continuously remain in a kind of inner turmoil, chaos. Once you start dropping alternatives, life becomes very simple and very innocent, childlike. And out of that innocence, all that is needed arrives. That's why Jesus repeats again and again 'Unless you are like small children, you will not enter my Kingdom of God.' A choiceless awareness is the phenomenon of innocence. One simply trusts life, trusts that whatsoever is coming will be good.
So from this moment live in a choiceless silence and you will be surprised how much freedom and how much joy is possible in ordinary, mundane things. Eating can be a celebration, sleeping can be a meditation, swimming can be ecstasy, because you start feeling one with the whole: you don't have any choice, you don't have any preferences, you don't have any likes, dislikes.
[An older sannyasin asks: Is it really possible for me to grow any more... because I sort of feel perhaps it isn't. I'm too old!]
Much is still possible. And you are on the right track; things are getting ready for much more. So don't close yourself, don't think that now there is no more growth for you. One goes on growing. In fact growth continues even while you are dying. Growth is possible when a person is dying; it will depend what attitude he takes about death. If he is not afraid, if he is willing, relaxing, surrendering to death, he will be growing through it. If he is a watcher, cool and calm, if he allows death to happen, co-operates with it, he will be growing.
And he may have the greatest experience of his life in it -- that of death happening and not happening, because that which dies is not you. If you can be relaxed and calm and quiet, you will be able to see that. It is a very subtle experience. If you are disturbed, worried, clinging to life, fighting death, then you will miss it. That is the highest growth point.
Growth starts when a child is conceived in the mother's womb and it continues all through life, but very few people grow that way. They only grow old, they don't grow up; they stop growing. The average mental age of human beings is not more than
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