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it. Your whole past is irrelevant to it. All your hopes for the future are irrelevant to it..It is something you had never hoped. It is something you had not even imagined. It is something you had not even dreamed. How can you recognize it? That's why the first satori has to be approved by the master. Up to the first satori one has to remain with the master. Then one can move on one's own, but not before that.
THIS SATORI WAS APPROVED BY EKKEI.
JITOKU CALLED ON DOKUON
AND THANKED HIM FOR HIS ADVICE, SAYING:
'IF IT HADN'T BEEN FOR YOUR WISDOM
I WOULD NOT HAVE HAD
SUCH A TRANSFIGURING EXPERIENCE.
AND AS FOR THE MASTER,
HIS BLOW WAS FAR FROM HARD ENOUGH.'
Now he understands. Had it been a little harder.... That time he was offended. Now he says HIS BLOW WAS FAR FROM HARD ENOUGH. Now he understands the compassion.
You are on the same journey. You are here with me to know what life is; to learn how to know that which is already available; to learn how to look into that which is already standing in front of you; to learn how to feel that which is already surrounding you from all sides. Many times I have to hit you; It may not be a physical whack on your head, because to tolerate that is not very difficult.
Just the other night a sannyasin came and he said, 'Last time I came to you, you called me a coward!' He was very much offended. Just because I called him a coward, he was so much offended. He missed an opportunity. The ego started thinking, the ego came in between. It was a hit on his head. He missed. Now I will have to take another opportunity.
And there are certain moments when only then can I hit you. Even then there is no certainty that you will not miss them. Only in rare moments you can be hit -- and then too you can miss. Be alert. And don't philosophize, because that can again be a trick. When I hit you, respond. Be alert. It is not to offend you; it is to awake you. And I know, the day you understand, you are also going to feel HIS BLOW WAS FAR FROM HARD ENOUGH.
To seek life, to search for truth, is to be ready to die -- to die to that life that you have been thinking
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