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about them. He had no time. He was more interested in academic philosophy -- Hegel, Kant and Bradley and people like that. And this man Gurdjieff looked almost a madman. But he was ill and nothing else to do, so he just started looking into the book by the way, to pass time and he became immensely interested. For the first time he had come across something really authentic. Hegel, Kant and Bradley -- those were only thinkers. This man knows! Each single word had the impact of tremendous authenticity and authority. This man was speaking like Jesus, like Buddha. He was not infering, he was simply sharing his experience. And that one month's seriousness transformed his whole being. Lying down on the bed he started meditating the way Gurdjieff proposes. Gurdjieff used to call meditation self-remembering: Whatsoever you do, do with deep remembering that you are doing it; don't forget yourself. Walking, remember that you are walking. Talking, remember that you are talking. Listening, remember that you are listening. Each act has also to be an act of remembrance. Lying down on the bed, tossing and turning he started remembering that 'I am lying on the bed,' that 'My head is aching,' that 'My back is aching.' There was nothing else to do -- he thought, 'Why not try what this man is saying?' And just trying those small ideas he became more and more intrigued.
By the time he was cured he was a different man. Just remembering he became aware that he is not the body at all. Then he used to say to his friends that, 'I had never been ill and I was very angry when I became ill because I have always followed all the rules and regulations that a man should follow who wants to be always healthy and still I fell ill and seriously ill -- I was almost on the deathbed. I started cursing god, I started doubting god. I started thinking that, "This is all nonsense. Life is an accident and death is an accident, everything is an accident." But meditating I realized that this was a great gift from god. In my whole life I have never been so blessed as this illness has proved.'
That's the meaning of David: God loves you, so whatever happens to you, feel grateful. Even sometimes
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