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he would close the shop. But I was not going to be satisfied so soon....
We would knock on his doors shouting, "What has happened? I am a customer."
Hearing that a customer was knocking, he would open a window and he would see me. He reported to the police, "This boy is torturing me; I cannot sleep. One thousand people are passing four times a day, and the whole neighborhood is laughing. They are all telling me, `Don't be worried, they are doing no harm to you. It is their eyes; if they want to pass with one eye closed...'"
He said, "But it creates great fear."
I was called to the police station. I went with one eye closed. They said, "What is the matter? Why do you keep one of your eyes closed?"
I said, "I am a very spontaneous person. If I feel to do... it is my eye. Seeing you, I felt the same."
The police officer said, "Just stop it here. I will never interfere in your affairs, but don't start telling all the school, because those idiots will start passing in front of the police station with one eye closed. That will damage our power and people will laugh." And he said, "It is not gentlemanly, it is not nice to harass people."
I said, "I will stop."
I stopped -- but the neighbors got it! They started. Anybody who came to his shop would come with an eye closed.
He called me one day. He said, "You are very nice, because you have stopped. But you have spread the disease so much that now it is uncontrollable. Last night my wife faced me with one eye closed. It creates very much fear."
I said, "But why should you fear? It has nothing to do... they are not closing your eye. If you want I can tell people that they should start putting one eye -- your eye -- closed."
He said, "Don't do that; that is too much. They will kill me."
You say that now the ashram is less fear-oriented.... You have become more mature. Always think about your own psychology. The world remains the same; only you change. And you are asking, "But in private life, how to distinguish between resistance and healthy rebellion?" If you can distinguish between healthy rebellion and unhealthy rebellion, if you are that
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