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very egoistic and think that it has done the painting. It can forget the hand that is behind it, And that's what happens when there is too much ego: we go on forgetting the real hand that is behind us!
[The new sannyasin says he has done here, and in England, Primal and Encounter.]
Mm mm. But nothing seems to have helped you....
[The sannyasin answers: I don't agree.]
Mm mm. That is perfectly good -- there is no need to agree you can disagree. If you disagree then there is no problem why be here? If you agree, I can work on you; if you don't agree then there is no problem, you can go. If you think it has helped, perfectly good -- I'm very happy! But not agreeing with me Is not going to help you. It is as if a man comes and says to the doctor 'I am perfectly healthy'. It is perfectly okay! I was going to suggest some groups but I will not. You can choose whatsoever groups you feel like doing and whatsoever you feel like doing here.
With me agreement is a must, so it is not a question of whether you agree or disagree with me. Otherwise it is perfectly good. I am not in any trouble and I am not hankering to help you. If you need my help it is available. If you feel like doing some groups, you can do; if you feel like doing some meditations you can do. But if you feel like agreeing with me, then I will suggest things to do, otherwise not. That's your choice, mm ?
That's what I was feeling from the very beginning: the ego is very much there. You didn't even like the name!
[The sannyasin replies: No.]
Mm, that I know... that I know. And I think you have taken sannyas wrongly. You should not have taken it. And it is still not too late; you can give it back. Because I don't see why you decided to become a sannyasin. I don't say no to anybody -- I am always ready to give whatsoever you ask -- but I don't feel that it is going to help you in any way, because your basic attitude is not that of surrender... and sannyas is surrender.
I have given you that name knowingly, and when I was talking about the name you were continuously disagreeing with it. You w ere not happy. The very idea was hurting you: you, an instrument?
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