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you want to remain lovers. And the agreement is not for the future: it is only for the present. The future remains open. Today you love him and tomorrow we will see!
Today's love and freedom and joy will decide tomorrow's love, but there is no contract for tomorrow. How can you promise for tomorrow? No one knows what tomorrow is going to bring. So to promise for the tomorrow is to move into a falsehood. It is untrue, insincere, because you may not be able to fulfill it... and then it creates guilt. If you fulfill it and you don't feel like fulfilling it, it represses you. If you don' fulfill it, you feel guilt; then on both sides you are caught.
So never promise for tomorrow. Who knows? -- tomorrow death may come. So nothing can be said about tomorrow; just today, this moment is available. Make things very clear to him.
My feeling is that you are in love with him -- that is true -- but he does not seen to be in love with you.
Maybe he thinks he is in love but there is some other reason in it, something else, otherwise why should he become so afraid? Love knows perfectly well how to give freedom, how to allow, how to allow the space for the other to be.
But go and make things clear. And you are a different person so let him know the new person! If he decides to be m love with this new person, only then.... Otherwise even if it is hard and it hurts, drop out of it or you will get into more trouble.
Whenever you can come, come back, mm? And I will be continuously with you. Keep this (a box) with you. And whenever you start becoming weak, just put it on your heart and it will give you strength.
Freedom has to be protected, and there are many dangers in it!
[A visitor says: I am a little bit afraid of you.]
Just a little bit? Mm? tell me the truth! If it is just a little bit then there is no need to worry. Become a sannyasin, mm?... So it is better you become a sannyasin so you will be entering more deeply into things.
Deva means divine renu means dust: divine dust. That's what we are made of, the stuff we are made of is divine dust.
Remember both things together: on the one hand man is divine;
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