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a mind: everyone is many minds; everyone is polypsychic. We go on talking about "my mind" -- never talk about it again! You are just a crowd, not even a group, but a crowd; and not even a crowd, but a warring crowd -- each thought fighting with someone else.
Gurdjieff used to say that man is just like a palace where there are so many slaves, but the master has gone out. And he has been out for such a long time that the slaves have now completely forgotten that there was a master. Now, whenever someone passes by the palace... and it is such a beautiful palace that everyone wants to enquire to whom it belongs. So any slave who happens to be on the door says, "It belongs to me. I am the master." But another time, the same person passes by; someone else is on the door, and he asks, "To whom does this palace belong?" He says, "It belongs to me, I am the master." So the whole city is confused, "Who is the master?" Everyone says, "I am the master" -- every slave.
Gurdjieff used to say, "Such is the condition of man. Every thought that passes, even on your surface mind, becomes the master; and the master is either asleep or has gone for a long journey and has not come back. And it has been so long...."
That's why we have no will. We cannot have a will if we are just a crowd. You decide to do something, and the second moment you decide not to do it. And the third moment, neither you are decisive to do it, nor even not to do it -- you are simply indecisive. You decide that you are going to be awake in the morning at four o'clock; and then at four o'clock you yourself say, "There is no need." Another slave is on the surface of your mind, not you -- the same one is not here who decided. In the morning when you are awake at eight o'clock, you begin to repent, "Why, when I had decided... why couldn't I get up? Why? This is the third. And these three will never meet; they have no dialogue -- they are just atomic thoughts. And any atomic thought on the surface becomes the master. You cannot have the will; really, you cannot have any soul. You are not an individual.
You must know the meaning of the word "individual." It means indivisible, that which cannot
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