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who will be here permanently -- twenty or thirty -- can form the base. You can have twenty in the group and ten dancers. If thirty people are working in tune, it will be difficult for a newcomer to get out of tune. The group's energy will work as a vortex and the newcomer will be pulled in.
But things will settle by and by. Things are going well...
The Cypress in the Courtyard
Chapter #2
Chapter title: None
5 June 1976 pm in Chuang Tzu Auditorium
Archive code: 7606055
ShortTitle: CYPRES02
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[A sannyasin said: I experienced something very strange after the Enlightenment Intensive group. I felt I was disconnected from myself -- I was here and my body was down there. It was very scarey. I ate a sandwich and that made me feel better but it was a very strange feeling.]
The first time it happens it is always very, strange because you cannot figure out what it is. Whatsoever happens, we can figure it out only if we have had some acquaintance with the same experience in the past. But when it happens for the first time, you don't have any past, You don't have any knowledge about it. Or, it will be more accurate to say, you don't have any mind about it. So when it comes, suddenly the whole mental mechanism stops. It cannot function. It is so new for it that it cannot digest it. And it scares you because whatsoever you know already is never scarey.
That's why death is so scarey -- because we don't Know anything about it and we cannot know before it happens. That is the whole fear of death. If there were some way to know about it, to experience it a little bit, then the fear would disappear. In fact meditation is a way to experience death before it happens.
That's what happened when you felt your body separate from yourself. For a single split moment all connection is lost. You are disconnected; no bridge exists between you and your body. It is tremendous, terrible. A terrific fear. arises.
You did well that you ate something. That is helpful, because the moment food enters the body you are reconnected to yourself. Either food or a woman who can lovingly
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