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But in that very destruction is creation. In that very destruction you will start having a new life which is eternal... which knows no beginning and no end... which is not of this world, and which is not of time and which is not of mind.
So if you can dare, the benediction is very close by. If you are ready to be crucified, the resurrection is waiting for you. So help this new spirit to grow. Help this new spirit to overpower you, to overwhelm you, to efface you completely and to erase you completely. That's what meditation is all about.
... whenever out of nothingness you feel an urgency to come. come, mm?
... I am this new space. So cooperate with it and you will be cooperating with me. Surrender to it and you will be surrendering to me....
[A sannyasin says: I even stopped meditation. I don't do it, and I was feeling disturbed about that. Everything seems to be routine, dull. I don't know what to do with it. I want to know what it's all about.]
Just accept this state. Don't condemn it. Don't say that there is no enthusiasm, don't say that it is dull -- because these very words are antagonistic. They show a dislike -- that you would like to be enthusiastic but there is no enthusiasm. You would like to be interested in many things and there is no interest. You would like to be very sharp and everything is dull.
Accept it so totally that there is no judgement. This is the way you are. And in fact what is there to be interested in life? The truth is that there is nothing much. What is there? It is a dull routine.
Just accept it and it will be a tremendous help. I'm not saying that by accepting it the enthusiasm will come back -- no. I'm simply saying that by accepting it, you will not feel it as a lack of enthusiasm. You will feel it as a sort of relaxation -- the whole attitude changes. Then you will not call it dullness, you will call it a non-ambitiousness. And it makes a lot of difference what you call it.
There is a saying of Lao Tzu that the whole world seems to be very sharp and intelligent -- only he is dull. But he was joking. He was saying that the whole world seems to be foolishly interested -- running
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