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centre. At that centre energy becomes samadhi, ecstasy. You are not to do anything for that. That happens on its own accord. But up to the third eye centre, effort is needed.
So start from tonight, and after four weeks, tell me how things are. Much is going to happen.
[A sannyasin asks: I have a kind of complicated question. It's about dependency and surrender. I am a dependent person and I have a hard time making decisions. I feel I have surrendered to you, yet I don't want to use that surrender as an excuse not to take my own strength.]
Mm, that's perfectly right. Surrender is not dependency at all. Surrender makes you as independent as nothing else can make you. Surrender doesn't take your self from you -- it simply takes your ego. And they are totally different things. When the ego is dropped, for the first time you really become an individual. The ego was just a bogus individuality, a pseudo-individuality, a pretender, a counterfeit; it was not the real thing. In surrender you drop the ego, the counterfeit, to become that which you really are -- it is not dependence at all.
By surrendering you become independent. And when you surrender to me, you are not surrendering to anybody really, because there is nobody. You are surrendering to a nothingness -- to a great nothing. You can look at me... I am just a door, a great passage to pass through. I am just an emptiness. You can pass through me, via me, and come to your own being. I am not a hindrance.
So remember that. You have to understand it absolutely clearly -- that dependency has nothing to do with surrender. If surrender becomes a dependency, you have missed. Then you are again playing the same game of the ego. Now the ego is playing the game of surrender, but it is there. Now the ego says, 'I am surrendered.'
When you are really surrendered, there is nobody to say, 'I am surrendered.' Nothing is left -- only a clarity of vision, a transparency of vision. You look at things more easily and you don't project yourself on them. The decision comes moment to moment -- you don't manipulate it, you don't control your life any more. You live in a let go and each moment you
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