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accept it and enjoy it and move with it -- it's good -- as if the whole world has slowed down.
Three days I think it will take, and you will be back -- and you will be back with a new freshness. Just float with it. Float with this timelessness and don't make any effort to come out of it. It will go on its own. If you make any effort -- and the mind will try to make an effort to come out of it -- you will disrupt a very beautiful process that has set in. So don't disrupt it.
You are doing the Soma group next? Very good. Soma is perfectly good for this. Those fifteen days will become like fifteen centuries so that will be tremendously beautiful. Very good.
[A visitor says: I felt a lot of struggling. fight. I felt disconnected. I realised during the group that I swallow a lot. I don't know how to stop. I tried to for two days but it keeps coming.]
No, you cannot do it that way. Swallow deliberately. Do it consciously, that's all. It has something to do with your mind.
Swallowing continuously means that you are continuously repressing something. You don't want to express it so you go on stomaching it. People who swallow too much are not open. If they are angry, they will swallow it; they will not show it. If they are sad, they will swallow it; they will not show it. If they are loving, even that they will swallow.
And I know that you want to become a sannyasin but you go on swallowing it.
... You can swallow it as much as you want. Once you stop swallowing you will have to become a sannyasin! (laughter)
But swallow deliberately. Whenever you see that you are swallowing, don't try to stop it; do it consciously, that's all. Try to find out what you are really swallowing. You will soon be able to. Then it is up to you. Swallowing is not the problem; it is just a symptom. The problem is somewhere else.
For example you want to do something and you are afraid to do it -- then you will swallow. See immediately why you are swallowing. Each time you swallow, find the root cause why -- what is the emotional part of it? This is the physical part -- what is the emotional part of it? Once you start understanding the
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