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Don't be worried about others. That's not the question at all.
... don't even think about them. That's their problem. That has nothing to do with you.
... You should only think about yourself because you cannot think about others. You are not even able to think about yourself rightly. And to think about somebody else will be standing on the outside. You don't know. Somebody may be just playing the game of some ego and may not be an egoist -- for example, a Gurdjieff.
He used to play at being such a egoist, but he was not an egoist at all. He was one of the most egoless persons ever. But he would play the game and he would deceive many. So who knows? A sannyasin walks by in a very egoistic way... but how can you be certain?
You can only be certain about your own subjectivity. This is an outer impression: he looks egoistic to you -- maybe it is just your ego that is interpreting it as egoism. It may not be there at all; it may be your projection.
So at the most we can be truthful only about our own subjectivity. Watching others carries no meaning, because whatsoever you watch is your interpretation. It is not the fact. It is your interpretation; it is how you feel about it. It may not be so. It may be just the contrary. It may be absolutely something else. It looks like that to you -- but that may be your ego.
So just think about yourself. Just meditate about your own state and where you are. And don't be too much burdened by scriptures. Put them aside and look at reality and where you are. If you have an ego you will have to use devices -- what Buddhists call 'upaya' . You will have to use many devices -- meditations, Vipassana, zazen. Sannyas is just a device.
One can become an egoist by meditating. One can feel, 'l am a great meditator' -- so what to do? One can become an egoist by becoming humble -- 'I am the greatest humble man in the world' -- so what to do? One can become an egoist by loving peo-ple, saying, 'I am a great lover.' The ego is possible -- and very subtle are its ways. It is possible anywhere. Unless you are alert and watch it, it can come from anywhere.
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