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capable of committing suicide. It is a very strange phenomenon but that's how life is; it is very paradoxical. First we have to learn how to create an ego and then the ego is ripe, strong enough, then we have to learn how to drop it. One would think it would have been more logical not to develop it at all. But when you would never know the soy of dropping it, the freedom of dropping it. A person who has never been in a gaol has no consciousness about being free; being in a gaol is a prerequisite to know the taste of freedom.
Life consists of contradictions -- that is its dialectics. A poor man never knows that he is poor. He looks poor only to the people who are not poor. He himself does not know that he is poor, he has nothing to compare his poverty with. To be really poor first you have to be rich and then you will know the pain of it, the agony of it. To really be a beggar, first you have to be an emperor, otherwise you will not know what it is to be a beggar.
The ego has to be strengthened only to be dropped. The will has to be sharpened only to be surrendered. Knowledge has to be gathered only to be unlearned. The day you unlearn whatsoever you have learned before, you become a child again, you are twice born. But this is not the same childhood, because the first childhood had no awareness of being knowledgeable; now you know what it means to be knowledgeable. And in dropping it you will feel such a great freedom, such great joy, such ecstasy, in fact you are not attaining anything.
In your childhood, in your first childhood you were the same, but you were completely unaware of it. This whole process is needed to make you aware. Awareness comes through a dialectical process.
So will is good, right, only when you are capable of dropping it, if you cannot drop it, if you cling to it, if it becomes your whole life-pattern you miss the whole point. When it creates only misery and hell. Great will-power is needed to create hell or heaven. If you continue in it, it creates hell, if you jump out of it, it creates heaven.
The only evolution worth calling evolution is the evolution of bliss. If bliss is not growing you are not evolving.
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