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You have to run with them, you have to remain constantly parallel to them. In fact, the best way is to be a little ahead of them... but you are lagging behind.
That may be just because you have never believed in your life that these things would happen to you. You had never dreamt about them. They are just happening out of the blue they are incomprehensible. You are simply bewildered By the time you have settled with one thing, another happens, and it keeps you unsettled.
But this is beautiful; this is what is expected of every sannyasin. Evolution has to be speeded up; then it becomes revolution. That's the only difference between evolution and revolution: evolution goes at an ant's pace -- it takes millions of years for a small thing to happen. Revolution means a quantum leap -- a jump from one state to another state, a discontinuity with the old. And once you have learned how to leap, life takes on such vitality, such joy that you cannot imagine it can be so beautiful, that life can be so alive!
Just raise your hands, close your eyes, and feel pulled towards me as if you are being pulled towards a magnet -- irresistibly pulled, you cannot help it, there is no way to hold yourself -- and if your body starts moving, allow. If your body starts leaning, allow.
[Another sannyasin says: there's a lot of fear but I'm not scared any more... It's as if love is just killing me.]
Love kills! It kills and gives no opening to escape. Fear is natural -- all that is needed is not to be scared by it. It has to be taken for granted, it has to be accepted. It will remain by the side, like a shadow. Soon it becomes impotent. If you don't give much attention to it, it loses all power over you. It goes on lingering by the side. It is just as in the morning when you wake up, the dream lingers a little while. You are drinking your tea and the dream is still lurking by the side. You are taking your bath and something of the dream is still hanging around, a hangover, but you are not paying attention to it. Soon it disappears. Like that, fear will disappear one day. Just don't pay much attention to it.
Love is a killer. This whole field is a love
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