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can invent your own calligraphy! Just do anything... just nonsense will do, but it will relax the whole inner system of your mind.
You have to move towards the left more. And once you have done that you will feel at ease, more silent, more calm, quiet, cool. Otherwise this problem will remain and it can create more and more problems as days pass. Because it is almost as if the car has been made to be driven with the left-hand -- it has a left-hand drive -- and you are trying to drive it from the right, so the whole mechanism is not there. All you can do is push it from behind and just somehow manage it.
Just accept it -- it is perfectly good.
[Another sannyasin says: I can't formulate what I'm trying to say.]
There is no need to say anything. Things are settling, things are changing, and when things are in change there are many things to say and yet it is very difficult to be articulate, because so many things are happening and so many things are going on simultaneously. It is very difficult to find from where to begin: it is almost like a circle, and circles inside circles are there. It is a transitory period. When the old starts disappearing and the new has not yet appeared on the horizon -- the night is gone and the day has not come -- that kind of interval is there.
So whatsoever you can ask will look irrelevant, because you can only ask something that you know. That is disappearing; that is your past. You cannot ask anything which is relevant because that has to be about the future which has not yet become present. Next time you come things will be very clear; you will be able to ask exactly according to your need. But whether you ask or not your need will be fulfilled; that's my work. It is not a question of your asking. And sometimes it happens: a person asks one thing and I give him something else, because I can see that that question is not in any way useful; that question is just a head question. Head questions make no sense but gut questions do, questions which come from the navel, not from the head, questions which don't come from your studies, knowledge, scholarship -- questions which come from your existence, existential
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