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lover of me.
So those things that you were imagining were your desires.When you come here the reality is totally different and it may not fit with your desires. It cannot fit with everybody's desires; so many people, thousands of people, come. If I try to fit with everybody's desire it will be impossible... so I am myself.
And you have to learn to see the reality. When one drops one's dreams it hurts, but those dreams are not going to help. I can help you! The Osho of your dreams cannot help you... and if you really want to be helped then it is better to drop all those dreams and encounter me as I am.
And this ashram and these people around me are managed by me. They are not hindrances, they are bridges. The day you understand, you will see that they bridge you with me. The groups and the groupleaders and everything that is happening around here is going to bridge you to me.
Right now, the way you are, you cannot be bridged. You will have to pass through a few groups. Those groups will shatter many things in you; they will destroy many things which have to be destroyed; they will uproot many weeds. They will prepare the ground, then I can sow the seeds; otherwise it is difficult. You follow me ?
And these sannyasins are creating a certain milieu. You can grow only in that milieu: it is an atmosphere, a climate. You don't know how you can grow, you don't know the ways of growth. If you are alone here with me it may be impossible for you to have any contact with me.
It is just like [the interpreter]: she is interpreting. If she is not here there will be no bridge. You speak one language, I speak another language; somebody is needed to interpret. And the same is true about many things: I speak a totally different kind of language. Many people are needed to interpret it in many ways so it can reach you.
Of course in the beginning you will feel 'Why are so many people standing in between ? Why not give me way so I can go direct ?' I can understand your desire but that desire is not going to help you. If you have really come it is better to settle with the reality... and you will be benefited. Once you have entered into
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