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illusory, like a dream, a chemical projection of the paradise lost. You have a feeling that it is regained through drugs but it is not really regained because you fall back again and again. It never becomes your very being, and unless paradise becomes your very being, it is meaningless.
Unless you become paradise, unless you become god, it is meaningless. Just through a drug trip the feeling that 'I am god', is just megalomania. You are tricking yourself, you are befooling yourself and destroying a great opportunity. The same time and the same energy can be put to the only work, the only work that is worthwhile -- that is, how to transform the whole being into consciousness.
If a small part has become transformed it is indicative that it is possible for the whole consciousness. It is possible, that much is certain, because a small part has already become conscious -- the tip of the iceberg. But if the tip can come out of the ocean why not the whole iceberg? There seems to be no intrinsic difficulty; one just has to put one's energies into it.
And I can see great possibilities in you, so rather than putting your energies into small trivia, direct your energies towards only one thing, and that is how to become more aware, how to become more alert, how to live in a conscious way, deliberately conscious.
In the beginning you have to make an effort to be conscious. Once the effort penetrates and has transformed another chunk of your being, then you can forget about it. it remains conscious. Once it becomes conscious, it remains conscious; it cannot fall back -- there is no way to fall back. Then you can work on another chunk of your being, and slowly, slowly, inch by inch one starts penetrating one's own palace. And the deeper you go, the more blissful you become. The day your whole being is full of light is the day of rejoicing!
That's what jesus means when he says, 'The kingdom of god is within you. But be awake,' he repeats a thousand and one times. 'Be awake, remain awake!'
One time somebody asked 'What do you mean by it ?' He said, 'It is like the man who went on a long journey. He told his servants, "Remain awake because
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