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live without you. He can go on harping on the same song again and again, and he can make you feel so guilty that out of guilt you say'Okay, I will come with you.' But you will never be happy, and if you are not happy you will never allow him to be happy either. So that is foolish. Just watch, and if you don't feel any liking, any love, any desire for him, if you only have sympathy and compassion then it is time to get out of it.
Never be with a person out of sympathy, otherwise you will be very destructive to yourself. Hate is better than sympathy. If you hate a person it is possible that you may love him one day, because hate is love upside-down. But sympathy is just a desert; out of sympathy love has never bloomed. Many times love blooms out of hate because hate blooms out of love many times; they are partners. But sympathy is just outside the love world; it is a very calculated mind-thing. So don't sympathise, don't have compassion and pity.
Just listen to your heart and go along with it. And yes, he will be feeling miserable but what can you do? It is better to get out of his life sooner so he can start feeling miserable about somebody else, otherwise he will go on feeling miserable about you. Why waste his time? Let him move with somebody else where he will find more affinity.
But if you feel that you have some liking for him, you can continue. You have to decide. But I see that you can decide. You have a clarity, and I'm happy that you are clear. Ultimately it is clarity that helps, nothing else. Good.
[A sannyasin says it is becoming more difficult for him to express his feelings.
Osho suggests some groups for him.]
This will go; nothing to be worried about. It must have been a characteristic with you for your whole life, more or less. You may not have been aware of it but it must have been there, because whatsoever has been there bubbles up, surfaces, through groups. Once it has come to the surface it is easy to get rid of it. You cannot drop anything from the unconscious. Only when the unconscious becomes conscious can it be dropped. It is just as you cannot cut the roots of the tree unless you pull the roots out
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