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at the pinnacle. Success is always followed by a heart attack. What else can you have after it? So he had a heart attack and he was dying. I went to see him. He was very sad -- who wants to die? -- and he was in great despair and anguish. I told him, 'You need not worry. You're not going to die.'
He said, 'What are you saying? But the doctors... all the doctors say that there is no possibility of my survival. On what grounds are you saying that I am not going to die?'
I said, 'You cannot die in the first place, because you never lived. You have not fulfilled the first requirement for dying. For these fifty-five years you have been sleep-walking, you have dreamt; you have not lived. I have watched you for years.' He was shocked, he was angry -- so angry that for a moment he forgot all about death. His eyes were aflame with anger and he said, 'Is this the way to treat a dying man? Can't you be a little courteous? Why are you so hard on me? I am dying and you are talking such great philosophy -- "You never lived." Is this the time to say such things?'
I listened silently. I just became absolutely silent. Then the rage disappeared and he started crying, and great tears came to his eyes. He held my hand with great love, and then he said, 'Maybe you are right. I never lived. Maybe you are not rude, you are just being true. And I know nobody else would have said this to me.' And then, great gratitude, and for a moment he became so conscious that one could have seen the light on the face -- it was there, he was all aura. And he thanked me. That night he died. I remained with him to the last moment.
And he said, 'If you had not been here I would have missed my death too, as I have missed my life. But I am dying consciously. At least one thing I am happy about -- I am not dying unconsciously. '
And his death was beautiful. He died without any regret, he died in a relaxed way. He died almost with a welcoming heart, he died full of gratitude. He died prayerfully. His next life is bound to have a different quality. If death is so beautiful it brings a new life to you.
But one has to live each moment, whether it is of life, of love, of
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