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that man can create by friction, by struggle, by conflict! but that remains very ordinary, naturally, because man-created things cannot be very extraordinary. It is very difficult to create it but very easy to lose it; years of work can be lost in a single moment.
In the West Gurdjieff was working on those lines; that was man-created awareness. He knew nothing of prayer, he knew nothing about how god can shower awareness on you. All that you have to do is to be open -- you just have to be an open door, you have to be a host -- and it comes, it comes unmistakably! And I see the possibility in you.
So I am giving you the name of awareness but your path has to be that of prayer. Awareness will come through prayer; that will be a by-product of prayer. You have to create moods of prayer. Whenever you have time, sit with raised hands, be in a receptive mood, open your heart and be filled by god! If something starts happening in the body -- any moving, shaking, trembling -- allow it. If some gibberish -- what the pentecostals call 'glossolalia' -- starts coming to you, allow it. You can become a great glossolaliac!
It is allowing tongues, speaking in tongues. In the beginning it looks like baby-talk, but by and by it becomes very intricate and complex. You don't understand the words that are coming. They may be of some language that you don't know, they may be of some language that is no more in existence, they may be of a language that is going to happen in the future, they may be of a language that exists on some other planet or they may not belong to any language at all. They may be a hodge-podge of many languages or may not be language at all; it may be just pure sound arising. You have to allow that; that will be your prayer. And don't be afraid! Because when it starts coming one feels fear -- 'What is happening? Is one going mad?' But you will attain to great sanity through it....
So start this from tonight. Just sit in your bed with raised hands, feel that energy is falling on you, feel it deep in your heart. Start swaying and allow anything that wants to surface in you -- any words, any sound, 'Ahhh...', anything -- and that is prayer.
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