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known, then it will not be a break-through, it will not be a discontinuity, it can't be utterly new and radical.
It is utterly new and utterly radical.
So waiting has to be with no idea for what. A real waiter cannot answer the question for what he is waiting; he can only shrug his shoulders, he can say 'I don't know.' But one thing is certain: that waiting is infinitely beautiful, waiting is infinitely joyous. When the whole turmoil disappears and it is all silence, it has a beauty of its own.
You ask me: DOES ONE MISS BY DEMANDING?
Certainly, absolutely. Demand has to be dropped.
IS IMPATIENCE A LACK OF TRUST?
Yes, certainly, absolutely. Impatience simply means you can't trust existence, you have to do something. You can't just sit there and trust that it will happen when you are ripe; that when spring comes, the grass will grow of its own accord. You cannot trust; you have to pull the grass from the earth. You cannot wait like a farmer who has thrown his seeds into the soil and they have disappeared, and now he does not know anymore where they are, whether they are going to grow into plants, whether they are ever going to ripen.
Think of a farmer. He has lost the seeds that he had. He waits, he silently waits; he trusts, he trusts nature. 'Soon the clouds will be coming, soon there will be great greenery all around and the seeds will start sprouting. They will become alive, they will come out of their slumber, they will again like to see the sun and the rain -- it is going to happen.' He trusts, it is just trust.
A meditator is a farmer. And, of course, he has to trust the ultimate nature of existence. Wait. Waiting is like a seed, waiting is the seed, the seed of enlightenment. If you can wait in its time -- and you cannot decide the time -- in its season, and you don't know in what season... Because it differs, it differs from individual to individual.
Mahavir became enlightened on an absolutely dark night when there was no moon; Buddha became enlightened on a full-moon night. Once a Jaina came to me and he asked 'Why this difference? Is there something in it? Why did Mahavir become enlightened
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